....I posted this same entry in my MySpace, but it seemed necessary to post it in here too b/c it sums up the things I havent written in the past month:)!

 _+_Well, I have not written much lately and I kind of miss it, so I decided to go ahead and write a little bit since I have some extra time, and I'm not all that sleepy. Life is still going quite well; I've just recently realized that I've grown up a bit, and my outlook on life in general is just different. I use to be depressed all the time thinking that things would never get better such as school, all types of relationships, and everything else since I have already been through so much that gave me doubts about everything. About 6-8 months ago I finally realized that I needed to be positive about things. It helped me make a bad day back to good; gave me faith back in relationships with guys, friends, and family; it helped me look at the bigger picture and appreciate the small, simple things in life. I'm just realizing that because I see how happy I stay pretty much ALL the time and even when things go wrong, I always see the good in it and always know it'll get better. Just today I was walking out of school thinking how it was such a beautiful day and how much I enjoyed/loved life and how things were progressing. Throughout the day I always name things that make me happy; there's never a moment that I can't think of something. Another thing is that I'm never bored...I always hear my friends complaining they're bored all the time and that they have nothing to do. I even enjoy just sitting there; I enjoy having nothing to do since I'm typically always busy doing something. I'm just satisfied all the time just in general and I like it that way. Well, enough with that. Me & DJ are of course doing wonderfully; I swear I couldnt of asked for a better bestfriend/boyfriend. He's absolutely too good to me and it seems perfect the way we are. We're so different yet so alike at the same time and I love that. We spend a lot of time together and we don't even argue; yeah, we have our times when we get a little mad over dumb stuff, but it's never an arguement...we just don't say anything until we're over it so we can talk about it peacefully w/o saying things we don't mean b/c we both are aware of each others temper, but we don't want that to come out. I've never loved anyone other then Kevin until now, and this feels so much greater because me and him bond more and get along so well. We havent even been dating 3 months yet and I already know I love him and it feels great; he makes me extremely happy. I can only hope that are feelings stay the same or get even greater for each other so we'll be together for a long time and I trust that they will. School is also going well; I'm making all A's except for in computer class I have a B. I only have a B b/c we've only done a few assignments so there isnt much to pull the grade up, but I have a test in there this coming Tuesday so hopefully I'll do well on it. I'm currently doing a research paper in English like I mentioned in my last entry; it's on abortion. Today alone I've already written 3 pages on it and it only has to be b/w 3-5 pages so I'm doing quite well. We have to have 3 different references though and so far I only have 4 internet sources, so I need to work on getting some other ones. My Mom is returning from Hawaii this weekend and she said she'll look for some magazines/books I could use since she'll be coming down within the next two weeks. The essay isnt due until April 5th, but I'm glad I already have a headstart on it, so I'll know I'll have plenty of time to work on it to make a good grade. Well, my weekends always go quite well b/c I typically get to see my SammieJo, Shannon, DanielJ, Paige, and Austin. I'm glad I get to see SammieJo more, but I still wish we were as close as we use to be and spend a little more time together. I've even seen Lacey and Zanna the past couple of weekends and I havent hung out with them since like 5th grade, but it's cool taken it alllll the way to back then. Well, I never even mentioned I got a job @ K-Mart, well I did like 2 weeks ago and it's going well. I get 4 days a week which is pretty good although it's hard standing up for so long, but I enjoy being a cashier. I guess I'm kind of getting use to standing up, I sure hope so. I get paid every two weeks meaning I don't get paid until the 20th which is fine I guess; just means a big check which will make me happy. I pretty much have the whole thing spent though, well not really, but a lot of it. I'll start saving after this check because I know my Dad is considering making me pay for car insurance. Well, back to mentioned my Mom...she's suppose to be coming down within the next two weeks to pay for my college classes for the summer semester which is nice of her; I know my Dad appreciates that. Plus, I should be getting my piercings that I've wanted for so long, then I'll be done with piercings, and I def. don't want any tatoos. Anyway, I'll be glad to see her since I havent seen her in so long plus I know she has some things for me. Next month, April 10-15 we're going on a cruise:)! I'm getting more excited about it since it's coming closer and closer. I've never been on a cruise muchless out the US, so it'll be interesting. Plus, I'll enjoy spending time with just my sister and Mom b/c I have def. not done that in a long time. But I'll miss my DJ and friends especially since I won't be able to talk on the phone b/c of roaming charges, but I should be able to get on the computer a little bit which doesnt help with me and DJ b/c he doesnt have a computer. Oh well, we'll work out something. Prom is also next month, on April 22nd. I really havent decided if I was going yet or not b/c I'm not sure if DJ will be able to get a tux or not, I hope so though. I'm not really too much worried about going so either way it's cool. Well, I guess I'm done writing for now; time for me to go get some sleep or try anyway._+_

**RIP Jojo & Jenny Kukucka, I miss/love my angels! RIP**

                                            ~TiA <3's DeSmOnD 12/19/05~

_!_Well, I havent had much time to write in this thing & I really don't have much time now, but I figured I'd leave a little something in here. I've been busy with college classes, spending time with friends, & spending time with my DJ. Everything is going quite well & I couldnt be happier! Anyway, I hope everyone has a wondeful Valentines Day!_!_

*Desmond & Me *

*Zanna, DanielJ, Stacy, Sammie, & Shannon! Both of these pics were takin' last weekend @ DanielJ's house.*

=^=Just added a new entry, but like I said before everything is going protected b/c I'm tired of ppl being nosey & repeating things that they have no business repeating esp. when they have no clue to what's going on. If you'd like to be on the list, leave me something. So far only Paige is on it. Have a GREAT day=^=

~$~Well, it has only been two days and I'm already writing again, so I guess that's a good thing. I normally wouldnt be writing right now, but I can't sleep and I don't even want to bother to try. I think the only reason I can't sleep is because I don't have school tomorrow, so I know I can sleep pretty much the whole day so it doesnt really matter what time I go to bed...mind over matter type of thing I suppose. Everything has been going well all week! Dj stayed over again on Tuesday night because he convinced his Mom he had to stay at a friends house so he could finish an English report since they don't have a computer and she went along with it. I absolutely love him staying over here and being held all night. We've only been dating a little over a month and it seems like so much longer since we've become so close. He's so much different than the others and I know most girls say that about every guy they date, but that's not the case here. He actually treats me well 24-7, we NEVER argue, he writes me poems/letters to tell me how he feels, I don't have to ask for anything-he just gives it to me...everything is so right, I don't even know how to explain it. I know there isnt anything more I could ask for other than my parents accepting that I'm dating someone who is black, but I'll wait on that day to happen. They don't even know that I have a boyfriend yet, much less a black one. My real Mom and my grandmother know, and I plan on telling Nancy within the next week or so. I'm just not sure how to go about it...who knows. Anyway, Me and him stayed up til like 4 that morning, so it was hard for us both to get out of bed and go to school. At least I didnt have to go until 11, but still my day was dragging. Wednesday went quite well though because we got out of English class like 30 minutes early and it only took me 15 minues to get a 95 on my Math test! So, I was definetely happy about that. I can only pray that I do that well the rest of the semester. Today went well, I went to computer class and I got out of there like 30 minutes early because I got my work done early. After that, I came here and chilled for a little while then went to the GYM. After that, I had to go pick Amy up from the career center and take her home since her Mom was at school and didnt have time to go pick her up. We talked for a few minutes, but then she had to go to work. It's nice seeing/talking to her especially since I don't do it often. She works a lot and when she isnt working she's with her boyfriend so it's hard to get up with her. Well, I went up to Contiuum after that since Dj was up there and he left all his clothes and stuff over here Tuesday night so I had to take him his things. I spent some time with him then went to Wally World to buy his Mom a birthday card since her birthday is this Sunday. I havent talked to Sammie today, but I did text her and asked her if her and Shannon would come over tomorrow night and chill for a little while. I'm not sure what I'll be up to this weekend. I know tomorrow I'll be sleeping in, going to the GYM, then going to have lunch with Dj to be a sweet girlfriend! Plus, he's staying tomorrow night, imagine that. I know I'm suppose to get up with DanielJ too, but I don't know if that's tomorrow or Saturday night, I guess I'll find that out tomorrow. I know Saturday I'm going to see Paige, she said she'd be home this time so hopefully that'll be true! I miss her and Austin too much! Plus, he'll be 5 months old on Saturday, he's growing up wayyy too fast! Well, I havent talked to Kevin much at all this weekend, there was a period of time where he was calling me everyday. Maybe he's upset with me because we talked like Monday night and he asked me if I was completely over him and I had to tell him the truth. I don't know, I guess he's doing well, he always manages. Well, I wanted to go to my Ma's this weekend, but she never said if she was going to come and pick me up or not so I just assumed she wasnt. Oh well, I'll see her soon enough, I'm just glad we're talking on regular basis now. Well, I'm going to lay down and watch tv hoping I'll fall asleep soon. I hope everyone has a GREAT and SAFE weekend!~$~

*RIP Joseph Ronald Kukucka and Jennifer Pearl Kukucka RIP*

                                                  TiA*n*DeSmOnD